The day before yesterday was a nightmare for me. I received
a text message from BAC on Monday stating that: “Dear all, the exam will be
released at PJ Campus Level 5 exam office on Wed 16/7 10-3pm only.” This
message had triggered the perpetual state of my paranoia and fear.
Going to law school, everyone tells me that it’s not easy
to go through. Your grades will either make you or break you. A Levels exam
which I took way leniently, no pressure or anything, and I took my exams,
headed for holidays after that and pretty much forgot about them until the week
that the results were distributed and I did badly. This time, I was way more
concerned waiting for grades and I didn’t want to repeat the mistake I did
during A Levels.
I woke up yesterday quite early which I couldn’t sleep
well. I was scared, I was thinking the whole night that what should I do if I
fail the exam? How should I tell my parents if I fail? And I’ll be guilty
enough for asking them to pay extra money for me to re-sit the papers where
they have already spent a lot for my tuition fees.
Showered, had breakfast and headed to the train station to
catch the train to the campus. The journey to the campus was completely a
torturous journey ever. I tried to calm my nerves down by listening to the
music and read novel. But, I couldn’t.
Reached the campus and waited for Steph and SiewHui who
were on their way to the campus. I was sitting near to the elevator anxiously and
saw a few classmates entered the elevator with nervous looks, and coming out
from the elevator with relieved smile and yet there were a few left the campus
miserably. I texted WoeiPey telling her that I was about to collect my results
and she calmed me down.
We went up to Level 5 once my friends arrived. Queued up
outside the exam office and everyone was nervous. I was shivering when my turn
was getting closer. Entered into the exam office, gave my name to the assistant
and she took out my certificate. Mr William then took my cert, verified with
the list on his hand and looked at me with a smile, said that “You pass!” I was
like “Thank god!”
Steph looked at me and asked “Pass?” I nodded and said yes.
She hugged me and I had little tears in my eyes. The frenzy of anticipation and the
numbness of actually getting the results culminate into a feeling of
overwhelming exhilaration and relief when I actually know that I have secured a
pass to get to Year 2.
The results I got, I couldn’t say they are good but they
aren’t horrible compared to my A Levels results. I know I need to study hard in
Year 2 so that I could secure a place in the university that I want to go for
myself.
#YEAR1 CHECKED
