Thought #2

The day before yesterday was a nightmare for me. I received a text message from BAC on Monday stating that: “Dear all, the exam will be released at PJ Campus Level 5 exam office on Wed 16/7 10-3pm only.” This message had triggered the perpetual state of my paranoia and fear.

Going to law school, everyone tells me that it’s not easy to go through. Your grades will either make you or break you. A Levels exam which I took way leniently, no pressure or anything, and I took my exams, headed for holidays after that and pretty much forgot about them until the week that the results were distributed and I did badly. This time, I was way more concerned waiting for grades and I didn’t want to repeat the mistake I did during A Levels.

I woke up yesterday quite early which I couldn’t sleep well. I was scared, I was thinking the whole night that what should I do if I fail the exam? How should I tell my parents if I fail? And I’ll be guilty enough for asking them to pay extra money for me to re-sit the papers where they have already spent a lot for my tuition fees.

Showered, had breakfast and headed to the train station to catch the train to the campus. The journey to the campus was completely a torturous journey ever. I tried to calm my nerves down by listening to the music and read novel. But, I couldn’t.

Reached the campus and waited for Steph and SiewHui who were on their way to the campus. I was sitting near to the elevator anxiously and saw a few classmates entered the elevator with nervous looks, and coming out from the elevator with relieved smile and yet there were a few left the campus miserably. I texted WoeiPey telling her that I was about to collect my results and she calmed me down.

We went up to Level 5 once my friends arrived. Queued up outside the exam office and everyone was nervous. I was shivering when my turn was getting closer. Entered into the exam office, gave my name to the assistant and she took out my certificate. Mr William then took my cert, verified with the list on his hand and looked at me with a smile, said that “You pass!” I was like “Thank god!”

Steph looked at me and asked “Pass?” I nodded and said yes. She hugged me and I had little tears in my eyes. The frenzy of anticipation and the numbness of actually getting the results culminate into a feeling of overwhelming exhilaration and relief when I actually know that I have secured a pass to get to Year 2.

The results I got, I couldn’t say they are good but they aren’t horrible compared to my A Levels results. I know I need to study hard in Year 2 so that I could secure a place in the university that I want to go for myself. 

#YEAR1 CHECKED